Hi All. We are still having a hard time just keeping food on the table and now, With all the issues I have dealt with lately one thing slipped my mind, till this morning when my 5 year old ran up to me and said is it time to go to school yet. As bad as it sounds I just have had so much on my plate I had forgot that he is suppose to start kindergarten this year. The school he will be attending is right down the road. So Alec and I walked down there. I got all the information I need to get the ball rolling but the issue is yet again money. He needs school supplies, uniforms, belt, socks, gym shorts, under shirts, new shoes and a book bag along with all the supplies they ask you to get. Also, he is behind on his shots. I talk to the school nurse while I was there and she told me all the shots he needed and a program here in Fort Worth where he can get his shots for $10 but he will have to go a total of 3 times equaling $30 dollars. I am reaching out to you all again in hopes that I can get my kiddo in school. I asking for Wal-Mart Gift Cards and Donations. And hand me down uniforms if anyone has any they aren't using. Address on request. I went to go make a wish list at Walmart.com but they wouldn't let me put the uniforms on the wish list. They start Aug.24th and we only receive one pay check between now and then. And sadly it has to go towards the rent and water bill. Please if anyone out there can help I would much appreciate it. My Wish is few Heroes to help me get my kid on the right start for his first year of school. Thank you so much for taking a look and for your kind souls and wonderful hearts.

So Here I am BEGGING for your help. Please any donation can be made below through paypal and address on request. Please anyone from the bottom of my heart I would so appericate it.

What do I do now?

Some weeks ago my loving husband had taken all he could bare. I guess that is how you can put it. He wasn't sleeping and he was getting angry. I have seen my husband upset before, don't get me wrong. But I had never seen him like this. He started making comments like "Well I'd be better off dead" or "I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up". I didn't know what to think of this. My husband has always been one of those happy go lucky kind of guys. Can crack a joke about almost anything. So when we had a fight that dreaded day, I never thought I would find him passed out in the car with vomit all over him. He had giving up, he had taken anything he could find and chased it with a 6 pack of beer. I wanted to drop to my knees, I wanted to give up right then with him. But, I knew I couldn't! We have 3 children to take care of, to be strong for, to live for. I then became angry, how could he? How dare he leave me alone? Then I heard it. My name, he was alive just out of it and needed to get emergency help right away. I pushed him over into the passenger seat as I yelled to our cousin to watch the boys. I drove him straight to local community hospital. Which thank god is less then a mile away. All the way there and into the door. I could him saying sorry, he had made a mistake. He didn't wanna leave me.

They were able to get him stable. They began to ask questions I couldn't answer. Yes, we had fought over money as the norm for most married couples. But it wasn't a rage kind of fight. Why did he try to take his life? the nurse asked. I don't know I answered. I didn't wanna be talking to them, I wanted to be next to his side. I wanted to know he was ok. I wanted to know I wouldn't have to do this alone without him.

Now I have to many questions I wanna ask him, to many feelings I wanna shout and I am growing tired.

A little about me!

What is there to really tell? It depends on what you want to know. I am a mother, wife, cook, teacher and best friend. I have been with my husband Matthew Wilson for 9yrs. And we have been married for 6 of those 9yrs. We have 3 wonderful boys full of energy. They have each been in their own way my personal angels. I always wanted to be a wife and a mother. I never expected to have 3 children before I was even 25yrs old. But it seems the Lord had another plan for me. Alec is my oldest son. He is 5yrs old. He was born in the month of January in the year 2004. Lucas soon followed in June of 2005. He is now 4yrs old. And not even a year after Lucas was born, we were blessed with Ethan Michael in May of 2006. He was 2 months early and weighed less then 4lbs. He is now 3yrs old and is as tall as Lucas and pretty much can defend his own against his older brothers. But of course as a whole they are all a handful. A babysitter is never at hand when you when you really need one.

I am a stay at home mom. Which leaves me plenty of time to do well NOTHING lol. Handling 3 children from the time they wake and the time they finally lay their tired heads down, well doesn’t leave you much time to do anything other then cooking a meal or doing a couple of loads of laundry.

My mother passed away from congested heart failure in 1994. I have missed her every day since. I try to tell my boys about her as often as I can even if its just a little memory. I haven’t got many pictures of her at all. Many were lost in a fire shortly after she passed away. My heart aches due to this. But thankfully many friends and family are searching through albums looking for pictures to share. My mother had met a woman shortly after we moved to weatherford years and years ago. Who became one of her closest friends. That woman is my Godmother Dawn. She raised me after my mother passed away. Along with many other friends and family. If there was one thing my mom was not short of , it was friends. People loved her. My whole life I have tried to be that woman. I have tried to be there for the many, the underdog. Not in hopes that I would gain any glory from it. Maybe just a few life long friends. I was raised by friends of my mother and so there fore those friends are my family. Just as all my friends are my family.

That is just a little about me... I hope to share more as time passes.